Pieces of Peace
Wise women are starting to flip the narrative of your twenties being the best time of your life. “Nay,” they say, “it’s your thirties.” Although I am not quite there yet, as I approach the latter half of my twenties, I can see how this may ring true. As my frontal lobe inches closer to completion, I reflect on my life and all that I have learned. I wanted to share my pieces of peace that I have tucked in my mental stash from influencers, my many therapists, and my own revelations.
You can always start again.
Always. There have been times in my life when I’ve felt that murky, stagnant feeling. In high school when I’ve outgrown friends, with projects that aren’t communicating what I need them to, while waiting tables I know I’ve had a couple of blunders with, you name it. The rule still applies. A fresh start can bring you closer to yourself. Although it was painful having to sit down with my schoolmates and explain to them that I don’t feel right when I’m around them, I knew I was looking out for my future self. Scrapping projects I’ve spent hours on, but didn’t quite feel right hurt in the moment, but I was always pleased on my next go round. Sure, I forgot someone’s ranch for their wings, but I have to be gentle with myself and say, “hey, it’s alright. It’s a busy night, we’ll knock the next tables socks off! Shake it off!”
What would your higher self do?
As someone who is very indecisive and suffers from imposter syndrome, to combat that, I ask myself, “What would my higher self do?” Or “what would the woman of my dreams do?” To really drive this point home, one of my favorite YouTubers, Leah Alexander, put it simply. “When you make decisions that are in alignment with your higher self, the gap between you and them starts to close faster. This was so enlightening to me and made me think, “I cannot wait to meet her.”
Your power is hiding in your fear
As humans, we often dream big and adore the things that we think are so out of reach. Still, as soon as we get closer to these things and we’re presented with the very opportunities we wanted, we back away and say “no, this is way bigger than me,” or “I’m not cut out for this,” “they’re making a mistake.” I have made peace with the fact that if an opportunity has presented itself to me, it is because the universe thought I was fit for it. Another YouTuber I love is Ayandastand. She used my greatest love as an example—the sun. Humans love the sun; we need the sun. But from a distance. When you take a closer look at the sun, it is indeed huge and terrifying. “The sun is terrifying, so there is that again duality of things that are very powerful are also very scary, and maybe my love, you fear your success because you fear that power within you.” Lean into that fear. What’s the worst that could happen?
